The way life should be

My heart aches.

It aches for all those sad and lonely including myself.
It aches for the children lost and oh so brave.
Living lives far from sitting in the shade with sun kissed skin.

My heart has so much lovin' to give if only you would let me share.
My children of the lost and lonely world, let me wrap my arms around.
Let me show you how I care.
Let me take away your tears for it is only fare.

Let us drop the top on the convertible and ride with the wind.
Playing the songs close to our hearts.
Singing like were toping the charts.
Dancing while sitting in the seat of the car.

Let the warmth of the sun take off the naked chill.
Let our hands share a holding.
Let us finally walk down the hill.
Smiling for all of eternity letting everyone see.

My heart has so much lovin'.
How I wish you could see.
Trust me to show you and an entire world awaits.
No longer will my heart ache.

Let happiness replace the sorrow.
Watch as the world awakes.
The flowers bloom and the stars shine bright.
Love overflowing.
The way all life should be.

Live fully, Laugh often, Love deeply

Live fully

That is, really living in the moment, in the here and now, whether it is working on a task or eating an ice cream. Practice the art of just being, experiencing with all your senses. If you bring this art of being to whatever activity you engage in, you will find that life starts to become more full. Living fully is also about learning, becoming more self-aware and self-reflective about your life, relationships, and your capacity to experience and channel the range of human emotions available to us.

Laugh often

It truly is! Laughing releases serotonin and increases endorphins – happy brain chemicals that improves our immune system, reduces stress, symptoms of depression, and leads to a positive sense of well being. Laughter is a healing activity. Laughter operates on biophysical and biochemical levels. At the biophysical level, laughter moves lymph fluid around your body simply by the convulsions you experience during the process of laughing; so it oxygenates your organs, boosts circulation & immune system function. The harder you laugh, the greater this effect. 

Have you ever laughed so hard that your stomach hurt and facial muscles were exhausted? If you have, that’s some serious exercise for your face and stomach muscles! At the biochemical level, laughing, as stated earlier, releases positive biochemicals that are distributed throughout our bodies. When you laugh, you generate a wealth of healing biochemicals. I encourage you to find more things to laugh about in your day-to-day life with friends, family, and co-workers.

Love deeply

Let us start with ourselves – loving ourselves deeply, for our genuine, true selves. Once we know love in ourselves, we can learn to love others and accept love into our lives. It is my experience that loving and accepting ourselves, with all our human flaws, insecurities, vulnerabilities, intrapsychic conflicts, and angst, takes tremendous courage. In fact loving ourselves demands the courage to heal, to re-author the script or narrative we were taught, learning how to be kind, accepting, and loving toward ourselves. Between work, chores, family and daily responsibilities, expectations, and obligations, you may find sustaining a healthy, vibrant, and meaningful relationship with yourself and/or with others more difficult. If you are struggling with living life more fully, living your best life possible.

Don't Be Afraid

Don't Be Afraid is a 1997 Industrial / electronic album by Information Society. It saw a dramatic change in creative direction from the pop stylings of Information Society's earlier work to a darker sound with prominent themes of paranoia and disaffection with modern life. The sound of Don't Be Afraid is most similar to the late '90s dark industrial work of Gary Numan.

The album was created as a solo effort by Information Society frontman Kurt Harland. After the breakup of the band in the mid-90s, Harland decided to retain the band name for this album. In 2006, the band reunited (with Harland initially opting out, before rejoining in 2007) and reassumed the name.

My Love of Paulo Coelho...

A story by Kahlil Gibran

I was strolling in the gardens of an insane asylum when I met a young man who was reading a philosophy book.

His behavior and his evident good health made him stand out from other inmates.

I sat down beside him and asked:
"What are you doing here?"
He looked at me surprised. But seeing that I was not one of the doctors, he replied:

"It's very simple. My father, a brilliant lawyer, wanted me to be like him. My Uncle, who owns a large emporium, hoped I would follow his example. My Mother wanted me to be the image of her beloved Father. My Sister always set her husband before me as an example of a successful man. My Brother tried to train me up to be an excellent athlete like himself.

And the same thing happened at school, with the Piano Teacher and the English teacher- they were all convinced and determined that they were the best possible example to follow. None of them looked at me as one should look at a man, but as if they were looking in a mirror.

So I decided to enter the asylum. At least here I an be myself."

Out of sorts and in a heap of a mess...

Ever have days, weeks, months maybe even a year or two where you can don the big sunglasses and frumpy clothes just so you can hide out. I have. I've been doing, living this dormant lifestyle not knowing where my life journey is going to take me. Not understanding where I am or where I am supposed to be. I guess we all have times like these. Me...I have a life like this.

Ever since I can remember, I've been surviving by the skin of my teeth. I've been getting by with the bare minimal. Just doing what I need to do in order just to get by. Yet not putting the WOW, in my life. Never letting anyone in close enough. Never pushing myself to the limit. I dream of adventure and just doing it. Being the best that I can be... putting my best foot forward. Pretending in my day to day that it's ok. That I am ok. Well.. I am not.

Never working towards any one Goal, but thinking about a million goals. I've lost focused. I lost direction y trying to take to much on all the while not taking anything on. I lost my discipline, if I ever had it to begin with. Discipline : 1 : PUNISHMENT; 2 obsolete : INSTRUCTION; 3 : a field of study; 4 : training that corrects, molds, or perfects the mental faculties or moral character; 5 a : control gained by enforcing obedience or order.

All the definitions are important and all are pertinent to me. The point is... how do I take it from the paper to the practice? How can I ingrain discipline into my day to day? How can I stop hiding out or wanting to hide out? The term, Just Do It... rings loudly in my ears but it isn't practical. I've said it to myself before. It's never worked. Grow up... that works but in order to grow up wouldn't you have had to had a childhood? Ok, I won't use that as a crutch... I won't. So what?, what can I do? I've written about goals and to do lists before. I know I am capable of so much more. I have yet to work to my potential.

What am I waiting for?

I have a quote: "Steal time from the life that passes you by." I love this quote I don't know who wrote it. My life is passing me by. I hate that, I hate thinking it or saying it. It is true. I am 34 years young, (not old) and yet my life is passing me by because I don't have the discipline it takes to succeed.

Success:1 obsolete : OUTCOME, RESULT; 2 a : degree or measure of succeeding; b : favorable or desired outcome; also : the attainment of wealth, favor, or eminence; 3 : one that succeeds

I desire success and have yet, to be successful in anything I have done. If I were a doctor and this a disease, what medicine would I prescribe? How can I fix this? How can I fix me?

Again... how can I take it from paper to practice? Worse part about all this. I have been a lousy role model to my brother. I see him slipping down the same God awful slope as me. need to make a change. A big huge change. Something tremendous.